never enough

Can't you hear me screaming, once again?
Voices you can't hear
Because you are consumed and incontent
With everlasting greed

Don't you see me on my hands and knees?
Begging and bleeding
You're smiling as you bite the hand that feeds
But will you never see?

Always wanting what your eyes can't see
Needing what your arms can't reach
Thinking you are in need
Always hearing what your ears can't hear
Feeling what your hands can't touch
Thinking you're incomplete

It was,
Never enough that I gave to you
All of the horror that you've put me through
How can I make up my mind this time?
This is where I will draw the line

Sacrificed my life to be with you
Why did you leave me?
There's nothing more from me you can consume
Cause you are incomplete

Always wanting what your eyes can't see
Needing what your arms can't reach
Thinking you are in need
Always hearing what your ears can't hear
Feeling what your hands can't touch
Thinking you're incomplete

It was,
Never enough that I gave to you
All of the horror that you've put me through
How can I make up my mind this time?
This is where I will draw the line

Everlasting need
Would you please?
Answer me and
Make me complete

Everlasting greed
Would you please?
Set me free
Fulfill all my needs and make me complete

It was,
Never enough that I gave to you
All of the horror that you've put me through
How can I make up my mind this time?
This is where I will draw the line

Never again will I be with you
No promise eternal carrying us through
I finally made up my mind this time
This is the end, I've drawn the line
Never enough to devour your greed

wooooohooo

I'm down 20 lbs in 8 months :) 20 more lbs to go and I'm at my ideal weight :D :D :D :D
Oh wait, there's still 20 lbs to go.....oh crap......... :)
Guess I better hit the gym when I get back ;)
I just bought a bodybugg......I figure it's my own sort of Channukah present to myself....so for $190 I feel like it's a good investment. A pricey, yet great investment and it will all pay off in the end when I reach my goal. It felt so amazing to have my whole family tell me that I slimmed down. I'm down 6 lbs since I last saw them....I'm a little worried about losing only 6 lbs in 3 months, as I want to lose at least 2 lbs a week....looks like I gotta say goodbye to stealing olga's cookies ;) oh well....it was fun while it lasted :):):)
I can run a mile without stopping at a comfortable pace :D I've gone to places I never thought possible before 3 months ago and nothing in the world is going to stop me now from me achieving my goals. The next time I come home (Dec 22) I will be 8 lbs lighter. YES, 8 lbs baby. Mark my words.
Ohhhhh yea :)

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i'm going home tomorrow :) :) :)
i love riding my bike to school despite the extreme cold weather :)
c ya kiddos

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving's got nothing on me :)
I can conquer the stereotype of extreme overeating and weight gain :D
I don't really have much to say, except that I now fit into size 29 jeans....oh yeah! (barely, but they still fit) I haven't been able to do that in YEARS! and when I say years, I'm thinking about 5 yrs....wow
I'm going to beg my parents for a bodybugg for the winter holidays....hopefully it'll work...I shall let you all know on wednesday if they go for it ;)

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All you need is love :)

Yeah, haven't posted in a while.
Too many exams :( Speaking of that, I have two tomorrow =/ both chemistry so, life sucks.
Last week, the person I counted on, my trainer at the gym did a very douchebaggy thing. He moved to Florida and didn't tell anyone until the day he left, leaving this other trainer to call all of his appointments and move them over. Douchebaggery to the max. How can someone do such a thing? He even half-assed my workout that day and had no disregard for anyone except his arrogant ass. Today, I decided to try out my "reassignment" I went to a body sculpt class which was ok, and then worked out on my own for 30 mins, getting my cardio in. My new trainer, who I've never met before in my life was this chick with long black hair and I think her eyes are blue? Immediately, no bullshit, headed down to the dreaded room in the catacombs of the gym, the side room next to the weight room. Bosu ball planks, jumping jacks with 8 lb weights, knee ups with 10 lb weights, lunges with a 14 lb core ball. THe best part of this was that I had the pleasure of doing these circuits three times! For someone who I've never met before, had no notes from Chris (the douche), she kicked my ass, and we even had a decent convo. She's a complete 180 from what Chris stood for. He didn't care about anyone but himself. She keeps special notecards on what we've done so she can build from that to see what we can do next and if stuff is getting too easy for me. Chris leaving might quite possibly be the best thing to happen to me. We shall see when December rolls around.

P.S GO REBECCA :)

study study study

Right now I'm studying for P.chem....and it sucks :(
My goal is to have 2 chapters done today and do chapter 4 tomorrow. Too much brain overload :)
Did my physics lab early so I'd have alllll day after work tomorrow to study ;)
Can't really update much more than this now due to the large amount of work i still have left....ttyl

love, peace and chicken grease :)